seeds of a madness flower

2011-01-25T16:57:00.000-05:00

left this space for posterous. all my archives have been migrated. new place is seedsofamadnessflower thanks.

2010-12-29T22:23:00.002-05:00

Year end rant might come in handy tomorrow. For now I keep it kosher sweet simple. I need a gig and a distance from the fray. I need a new madness that sprouts manna. I need a money bag with no equivocations. And no labels on this rant..

2010-12-18T10:35:00.001-05:00

The weekend before my android tablet gets here. I am like a christmas kid waiting for santa to drop the bag. He better drop it quick before I bash him in the head and take everything. Seriously santa wouldn't come near me. It's time society drop the myths man. But they won't. It's a money thing. The older you get the more wary you become of people at the helm. Especially if you are a seeker then you always shaking your head sadly at the lies and FUD they spreading. My question is why can't the leaders trust the people? Why are the big companies trying to strangle the Internet? I mean what do they want? They don't respect the masses at all. They act as if we are dumb automatons. And they in the elite camp are our saviors. This is wrong on so many levels. Who made you savior? This world needs to change. We need a new age man. I hope that is what 2012 is about. I am tired of the lying media, the sick journalists, serpent politicians, greedy companies and narcissistic stars. They didn't invent the web. Geeks did but they want to break it into two. They are absurd man. Telling me what I should buy. What i should listen to. Damn! Get a grip. Bug of slave drivers. Seriously I hope 2012 ushers in a new age that takes the power away from the slave drivers once and for all.

2010-12-15T18:22:00.002-05:00

I bought my archos 70 android tablet from a first company but they couldn't deliver on the time frame that I lusted for. So I surrended to behemoth Amazon and my holiday treat will be delivered on the twenty-second. I just want to dive and mess with my first Android device. I wonder what is all the fuss about? Actually I think it will be uber cool. Mister netbook must be fuming in his dormant state. He hasn't stirred in awhile but I haven't given up. Sometimes you gotta swing sideways into another dimension and discover new temptations. Trust your technolust fallen children of eden. Tablets are the future and the future shimmers. Diaspora is starting to get its shine on. Identi.ca brethren are populating it en masse. We are testing it for the alpha bugs so that it becomes a truly federated space to work, play and innovate. I truly dig it man. Along with Identi.ca Diaspora feels like my thing. My Linux places to be..

2010-12-09T09:49:00.003-05:00

I am digging Diaspora. Feeling it out with my geeked out tentacles. Got an invite from an Identi.ca brethren to sample the alpha. I have already invited other brethren to sample along with me. This Facebook killer as posted by parasitic media does not have to be. Facebook can do their thing and Diaspora will do a different thing. I will stay for awhile to get back with the social crowd. And I can control the lifestream however I want. The aspect feature of Diaspora is the real deal. This time if you reveal your shit then it's your fault. Create a private aspect. Create a public aspect. Create a sleep aspect. The power is yours and no more whining. I am rooting for you Diaspora. Let's create a true social space sans big business meddling. We've seen how paypal and amazon and visa and mastercard behave when the system tells them to bend. They don't choose us. What are we too them? So Diaspora would do well to take heed of who it gets in bed with.. Let's make this our diaspora in the truest sense.

2010-12-04T19:00:00.003-05:00

Cold days and leeching the web for warmth. The Internet junkie in me thrusting at full throttle. Hardcore simstim and total immersion. I am a digital native through and through. but I still got this book from the college library to read. I didn't forget them. Didn't abandon you shamans. The book is the autobiography of #Leroi #Jones aka #Amiri #Baraka. Should be great. I want to upload my new poetry book to #Lulu and subsequently amazon if @melkydd hooks me up with a killer cover this weekend. As an artist you need to keep creating, throwing the stuff out there. In the age of pervasive web we have the whole world as an audience. Does not matter we never get millions or whatever so long as we do our art and somebody somewhere listens, reads, watches, participates, disseminates the art then it's all good. The goal is to share the creativity with humanity. I mean too many people sharing hatred and war and insanity. Creating art gives me the wickedest satisfaction man. I went to #MOMA this week for research for an art history paper. Place was crowded as usual. Lots of kids too with their class on the floor attempting to reproduce greatness. I always feel overwhelmed whenever I go to MOMA. I take in only so much and flee. It's too much man. Anyways I got the research I needed and wrote a killer paper.

2010-12-02T14:27:00.002-05:00

Cling to nothing in #meatspace. That's how I need to start the rest of my life. There's a story behind that but let's leave that alone and move along into the binary. My netbook crashed. Fell down once too many. I think it might be the battery has shorted out for good. I will get one when I get one. Meanwhile I installed #Sabayon in #Vbox so I now have Salix and Sabayon alongside #Debian as host. A rather cool setup I reckon. Only piece missing are dual monitors and I would be chilling in the binary kingdom. That too will be gotten when I get it. The more tech fails the more tech stays the same. In America it's easy to find a portal to shoot your #digitalo. Can't imagine not having access. Well this hacker tried to cut off #wikileaks access and he did succeed for a bit but #wikileaks got back to their matrix status. The world governments want the head of #Assange. People are divided on the issue of transparency. All I hear are politicians screaming about the potential endangerment of lives which is bloody vague in itself. No one wants to talk about the dishonesty of the politicians. The herd thinks that the politicians are above reproach but sorry man they are just as wicked and dishonest as the rest of us. Every body equal. Everybody stinking. Everybody lying and denigrating each other behind each other backs. Why should we believe #Babylon? Do you?

2010-11-29T18:14:00.001-05:00

We spend mad hours in cyberspace to the point that it has become an extension of us, an appendage even. I was in the Bronx yesterday and all I could think of was getting back to my net. I was basically locked out from the web in a digital dead zone. Even if it felt good to be out in the world the pull of digitalo was hard and real. The truth is I need the web wherever I am. I do play well with others but most flesh humans are a obnoxious bunch I could do without or at least temper their interaction with a pervasive net. You always get that judging stare on first approach. Funny thing is they do it over and over again whenever they meet you. The same friends and family giving you the evil eye. Normal family sucks. Imagine that I get to exercise the real in virtual space. As a poet and artist the power that the net gives me is non-comparable. As a Geek the net is the most powerful orgasm ever conceived. I have gotten the chance to interact with some of the coolest people ever because of the net. I call them my brethren. We might never meet in the meatspace but it's all good. I know a lot of people wish meatspace for them was merely a place to perform the basic human needs and nothing besides. Some of us could do without envy, racism, manipulation etc. Unfortunately humans drag that sickness into the virtual and there's no way to curb it. After all it is a freedom thing. Hey sicky human you have the right to hate me because of your racist virus. Yup they have the freedom to do that. Nevertheless the web is tops. I live there. I play there. My immortality is etched there.

2010-11-26T20:54:00.002-05:00

Thanksgiving came and fled. I ate the good things, got stuffed, fixed the proverbial computer. It was a good day. Thankful for that. Somewhere a child starved though and that is not acceptable in a world that dumps food by the millions of tons. You have to wonder about that kind of mindset. And yes it is justified by some anti-human logic. I replaced windows again with a universal door called Linux for the extended family. I am hoping that they chill on wanting to return to the old barred up windows. Vista crashed it less than a week after I was forced to remove Ubuntu. The machines purrs again with Ubuntu back on. The wireless works seamless. I mean the adults in the house have no problem with Linux on there. They surf the web even better than on windows. It is the kids who complain about steep learning curves and all that jazz. You'd have thought they would have embraced it without a whimper. There's a real story there. It is called gaming. They are addicted to their windows gaming. What can I say to that? I choose to play Linux games and get mad satisfaction from it. I mean a lot of the MMORPG online games which the cool kids are addicted too are basically platform independent so I don't see the problem. It is sad that they would choose to use a virus prone resource hungry environment just for the sake of gaming instead of abdicating to Linux for those same online games but you also get to hone your tech ninja skills for a chance at a better future. But that how it is. The world sucks when it comes to choosing the rare. The herd loathes the rare.

2010-11-23T16:58:00.003-05:00

Yesterday the cellphone company tripped up my day. Today am smiling and surfing on better waves. I made a mistake with the new account that I hooked up for my dad. I emailed them till they corrected it. I think there should be a failsafe method to prevent someone making these kinds of click mistakes. I think the websites are not interactive enough. Meanwhile it seems Microsoft that relentless beast is still trying to cripple Linux. Novell was sold to a company that Microsoft is a part of thus Linux aficionados are bawling about how Microsoft could have control of Unix. I hope this is just a rumor because that would be the biggest blow yet to our thing. WTF Microsoft can you kill yourself already? We don't need you. We have everything we need lamer. Go puke with Facebook in your spineless garden. Amazes me how they want so bad for us to be extinct. They still don't get it. Linux is the best thing that happened on the way to free knowledge and technology. But as a brethren quipped on Identi.ca we should not start panicking and sowing the seeds of FUD. They will never break NIX. Let Microsoft be the only sowers of FUD. Meanwhile I discovered AssaultCube last night, a Multi-platform first person shooter where you have the choice of playing against bots in singleplayer mode or in multiplayer mode where you play online against other freaks. It rocks real good in Linux. The action is real smooth on my Debian testing box. I definitely recommend it as a cool Linux action game. You can frag bots or humans online to your beasts content.

2010-11-18T16:11:00.003-05:00

Saw the the Archos 70 tablet today and I got giddy. It looks like the one. I need to get that money now. Tired of waiting for the real Android tablets to hit the market place. What are real Android tablets anyway? This will be a cool addition to my Linux machines. Some say Android is a threat to Linux. Well I want to get the hands on experience. I know though Google will never support Linux one hundred percent. Wishful thinking from those of us who think otherwise. Bottom line is about profit and ego. Nevertheless Google is still our friend in this hostile capitalistic environment of the apples and microsofts. Compared to them Google is two hundred percent sweetener. Imagine an apple-microsoft centric interweb. And we have another tumor in the cancerous cum poleethman Facebook trying to listen to our thoughts. But the herd is willing to let them into its most sacred space because Farmville is real farming and that time suck actually makes us social. Orwell must be cursing in the void.

2010-11-13T15:42:00.003-05:00

Left to my own devices this weekend-January was my time in Puerto Rico - Now is the love's turn in Boston. There's work to be done, philosophy mid terms to complete - TV cop shows and a slew of movies - Not enough hours in the day - Living 25/8 - Identi.ca keeping me upbeat - Best social space on the interwebs - Discovered Pydentica coded by @Speeddefrost from identi.ca - It rocks man - Better than Pino methinks - Music in my head - Big K.R.I.T - intelligent hardcore realest hip hop with a wicked flow - can't get better than that - Walkmen's latest is wicked too - Maybe I might catch Skyline this weekend - The aliens look wicked man - The aliens gotta come sooner or later - It's not up to us or them - Life agitates where it agitates.

2010-11-10T17:41:00.002-05:00

Having mad fun with Identicurse the nifty cli app created by @reality and @psquid on Identi.ca. You done know I am sick head after my cli apps. Good stuff my Linux brethren. I am actually trying to create a deb of it. Wish me luck but if I fail am still not looking back. The time has come for me to step up to the next level of Linux. I feel like I need to contribute a lot more. We all gotta do our part for Linux. Linux is the real deal. Seems that Ubuntu is evolving once again much to the chagrin of some and the rapture of others. Canonical is dumping X for Wayland and Gnome for Unity. Time will tell whether this was a ninja move. I feel that Ubuntu will succeed. They got a vision even if it is sometimes at odds with a lot of Linux people. Nevertheless the essence of Linux is freedom so it's all good. Am not rocking Ubuntu right now. Doesn't mean I hate it. I guess am feeling other Linuxes at this time and space. Definitely feeling Sabayon. I will eventually run full blown Gentoo on my desktop dualbooting with Debian Testing. I feel that Linux has conquered even the numbers don't show it. Take your nuimbers and shove it pundits. Still they are those who are creeped out by Linux. I installed Ubuntu for the extended family on an aging machine. Windows would break it every few weeks. Ubuntu ran mad sweet on there. About a month later they call me lamenting about some printing problem. I wondered if they even tried to install the printer. Well they pretty much hate Linux at their place. They want their windows back. The door was too overwhelming. They prefer their prison. You can't save everyone. Some don't want to be saved. So let them drown.

2010-11-09T00:34:00.003-05:00

Philosophy class tonight was the most interesting one yet. Now we getting the gist of the matter. Discussion was on morality. Would you kill to save lives? Class was divided on that. Basically what I saw was that people say a lot of things and they feel almost fanatical about their beliefs but ultimately it boils down to what is going in their heads and the situation they are placed in. You are never really sure what you will do in a given situation. We are all moralists up to the time when the abyss beckons. Then all hell breaks loose and it is each man for himself. What can you do. It is the nature of the beast.

2010-11-06T17:40:00.000-04:00

Well I slid back on track in school. Seems like I didn't miss anything worth a beat. I guess I hunkered down and did the whole back tracking thing. Been skulking from IM for weeks now. Don't feel like giving back. Boring mundane, clueless IM lost it's mojo, a time suck of lost children like big brother Facebook. And who is really missing me? I prefer to teeter on the money haunt. Don't have my Linux tablet yet. Don't have my six quivering Linux machines yet and transparent monitors. Don't envisage my hands plucking one anytime soon. Actually that depends on whether my status gets moved up. Once again my fate depends on Babylon. It sucks but you already that. In the mean time I try not to downgrade myself. What will it benefit me? At least I am back on the Flash Fiction trip. My last one sucking good feed back. Already got another started. Writing keeps me sane, same as talking to myself. I walk NYC streets at all hours and babble to myself, therapy shit, self medicating even, humans can't fathom and I don't give a bitch. A professor would like to try to publish a manuscript of a compilation of my poems, like about a hundred or so. Would be wicked to see a big ass book of mine published by a university press. Crazy shit man. Definitely out there. Well for me it's either out there or nowhere at all. Seems like California getting funny man. Voters killing the Marijuana proposition and voting for bloodclot polluters to escape persecution. Definitely a downgrade Cali. It will only get worse. Learn to swim hipsters. They are gunning for you man.

2010-11-03T14:08:00.002-04:00

I watched the three big dog republicans this morning in a press conference and I saw no compromise from them. Basically they were saying that they are taking their country back from the n***er. They want to go back to how it always was. They want their plantation. They want total control. Slave can't become master. They act as if Obama has done nothing. That man came with peace and unity and they said no. No matter what he tried they shot it down. I truly don't understand that. What is so wrong with universal health care? The picture is clear. Obama better wise up. Bush spent billions on war and squandered thousands of young lives and they exonerated him. Go figure. America needs the banks. Which country doesn't? He had to bail them out. The republicans would have done the same. Now you have the loony tea party talking about abolishing the dept of education. And people voted them. All I see is a reversal of progress. Bush basically killed America's edge in tech and science. The democrats tried to bring it back. Well they will kill it again. But hey they taking their country back. So it's all good. Obama you had your moment but it's done. Even the so called young hip kids who voted you in a spirit of change and tolerance, freedom and future has turned against you man. They have gone back to the ways of the conservative. They were always conservative. Don't ever get it twisted. Watch Facebook. People flock there because it's popular. It's the in thing. They don't give a fuck about the real. People started crying about Obama and the democrats not creating jobs so they jumped on that. The herd always wins man. Don't ever get it twisted. People ultimately desire their three gas guzzling and polluting SUV's. Man will scorch the sky to have his backyard BBQ. Ultimately it is a savage world. Dog eat dog. Animal fucking kingdom.

2010-11-01T17:38:00.002-04:00

came back to school today after more than two weeks in my own personal mire. missed out on a lot of stuff. have to double the catching up. but the grades don't matter anymore. as long as am learning the good shit. wish i could move to california and just chill on the beach or something. work freelance and forget all that school shit. you can learn anything on the web. cali got the real vibe man. more laid back. plus it's warm. nyc is bugging me out man. plus my people don't have a clue who I am. am not a scholar freak. am a poet and linux geek man. the lack of money keeps me hanging around. trying to find a way out. gotta find a way out somehow. something has to give.

2010-10-31T21:51:00.002-04:00

they want my poetry manuscript so i will give them one. actually i was about to self publish it good stuff i guess. what else? nothing much. becoming a different beast. trying to rise again like a phoenix. from ashes and family and fiends. the strangest life i have ever known.

2010-10-14T16:52:00.004-04:00

learn to swim before Gaea belches. or don't let me drown before the bullshit ends. well something is definitely shifting here. a contest of wills. the chasm widens between now and then. not my best moments but i trudge on with angst bursting from my aneurysm. have a good one.

2010-10-06T18:53:00.002-04:00

The government wants to sniff the hell out of your electronic presence. Phone companies wants to sue you to hell over texting and media sharing. Brave new world huh. So why bother with all this tech and web business? Might as well surrender it to the politicians so they can shove it into their skeleton closets to keep it safe. Sad really to see how a beautiful invention as the web elicits so much fear in people. They feel the need to control it. But you can't control something that is beyond the comprehension of your petty mind. Sad blind politicians can't accept the mutation that took place in the last twenty years. Everything has come full circle. The younger generation took the power. Master became the slave. The new knowledge runs the world. The movie and music industries are trying desperately to turn back time. Gene Simmons of the band kiss is one of the desperates. Check out his sad rant . Sad little kiss man, your band sucks. You are a dinosaur. Check out Trent Reznor and the hip hop mixtape revolution. They are spreading their music all over the interwebs. They give their music for free to the people who actually love music effectively cutting out the vampire RIAA. And they still make money from their fans. You can't stop progress Hollywood. People are tired of fake ass blockbuster bullshit. How long do you think your industry will survive on regurgitating tired formulas? Any aspiring film maker can get her project out there with the tech she owns in her bedroom. So stop getting it twisted. Piracy didn't kill you, ignorance did. The luddites will whine till their voice runs out of spit and choke on their misery. Luddites never invented anything but apathy.

2010-10-03T00:48:00.003-04:00

Finally got to choose the poems I wanted for my new poetry book project. It is more like an EP featuring just 15 poems. I have finished arranging the sequence of the poems. When the cover art is done I will upload the pdf to lulu and make them do their thing. Will order one to see the finished product. Yup the electric shepherd will be unleashed real soon. Art never sleeps.

2010-09-28T12:00:00.000-04:00

Hard rain week this way comes in nyc. Good stuff from the sky-verse. I got a million things to do but am taking it in stride. The quest to become Linux commandline leet marches on. The sysadmin in me is glowing red. Feels mad cool to be able to manipulate cli like a tech ninja. Still dabbling in web dev. Also taking that in stride. Will get there when I get there. I figure we gotta chill man. Enough of that desperation. What may come will come. Am not rebooting but am definitely suspending and hibernating and refreshing the zeitgeist. Fresh eyes keeps you fresh. Smell the rain one more time. What does it feel like?

2010-09-26T15:24:00.003-04:00

On the cusp of another week starting and the hustle that it brings. Tried to be creative yesterday but didn't get far. Maybe it's the suffocating room that sucks me dry of initiative. But the warrior must use whatever resources are available and learn to thrive in any situation. Guess am half a warrior. Full warrior soul will take more time. Meanwhile am doing the tech thing getting better everyday. Fall TV season is in full throttle and am getting my fix. The event looks good. NCIS Los Angeles is back in gritty mode with the coolest tech. CSI and CSI NY rocked also. Fringe rocks also. It's one of my favorite shows. Plus there's Haven about a twisted town in Maine. Can't wait for Human Target second season beginning Oct 1st. Good stuff for the fall. Should keep me addicted.

2010-09-23T23:02:00.001-04:00

I wish colleges and universities gave us a choice of designing our degree program. I would have created a wicked Linux Web Dev curriculum and never looked back. Wishful thinking. I am stuck in the grind with the herd and my choices are not choices but snorting between hard rocks and hard places. May Yahweh grant me the serenity to channel my chi out of the negative. The negatives entered with us into this existence, our own special negatives even. They hang around our neck like cynical albatrosses dragging us into the deep. We need to find the madness to kick them back into the ether. The madness must be special and omnipotent. It has to slay tradition and conformity first and foremost. It has to be a stranger in a strange land. It has to overcome all that is stale and groveling. It can't be slave not for even a sliver of a second. So I grit my teeth and ride the dragon to the next level. Most of all I gotta dig the journey, the way even. Some prefer to grind to the end. I say grind to the now. The end is never your friend. How can it be when it wants your head on a stick?

2010-09-20T23:42:00.002-04:00

One of the many linux podcasts I fire up from gpodder.net is the Linux action show. On the last one I listened to they ranted about Nokia tripping up with the introduction of new smartphones running the Symbian OS. I gotta agree. They askesd why didn't Nokia put Maemo on there instead of tired Symbian. How is Nokia gonna compete with Android and Apple and the upcoming Windows mobile phone. I for one would choose Maemo over Android owing to the fact that it is Debian based. They could just have tweaked it a bit to make it more like a real mobile OS and not like how the n900 is. The n900 is basically a sweet mobile computer more suited to geeks like me. It does not have mass appeal like Android or apple iphone which are primarily mobile flatforms. Nokia needs to tweak Maemo to a strictly mobile form factor. Maybe they could go with meego on their smartphones. Nevertheless Nokia is the biggest cellphone company in the world by a far margin but they are rapidly losing market share so it remains to be seen how their new smartphones will compete. I am waiting for my linux tablet so a smartphone is not in my immediate vision. I would love a hardcore linux tablet tweaked to the tablet form factor. As i mentioned in a previous post maybe Meego might do it better than android. I don't want to be tethered only to the android store. I think most of them apps are overrated. But Linux is about choice so we filter to our geek's content.

2010-09-17T18:33:00.001-04:00

I resent having to take certain classes for a tech degree that the college system deems necessary for my wholesome growth as a full rounded professional. This is a waste of my time and hustle money. Gotta be a money thing for them. I mean if I want to know about art history I will get on the interwebs and intellectualize myself. I am a computer major and I just need the tech full throttle. Let me worry about the rest of my personal, professional or moral perspective . At least give me a choice. You ever wonder who are the people who design these prison systems. Most of the so called knowledge they feed you is deleted long before graduation day. Society remains a cesspool. Civilization still sucks like a parasite. Yet we are still regurgitating philosophy. What the hell are you saying philosophers? I have read dozens of philosophers and most were impotent tired men. At least some were paranoid like nietzsche. So I give him a pass. They ask questions like "what is knowledge?" Who cares pendejo? We are hurtling towards destruction and the best question you can ask is "What is knowledge". A comet could hits us tomorrow and they would be chewing the same stale cud. No amount of college education, philosophy or psychology even will fix civilization. Am I a pessimist? No. I do know that all cultures have failed and failed again to find the cure for man. Mankind needs to be cured. Education can't do it. Giving me useless courses that make me yawn won't heal the wound. Another cancer is the price of textbooks. Why can't I just download pdfs to my machine and print what I want when I want. I gotta buy useless books for a hundred dollars? This is bullshit. Buying a textbook for a hundred dollars in the tech age is apostasy. Android tablets better hurry up and get here so educators and administrators can at least see that we have more choices to read our ebooks. At least california is trying out the ipad in certain schools. Cali knows what's up.

2010-09-16T01:46:00.000-04:00

so my childhood friend buried his father today. i remember when my brother was buried so i know it is not an easy thing. you feel so fucking hopeless and desolate it's not funny. you bawl your soul out but your loved one aint coming back. they stay dead. they rot. the earth refuses no one. seems like we fading away man. my village is like a fucking tomb. haven't seen it in more than two years but i can imagine the dark feeling that hovers. nevertheless we gotta grit out teeth and grind out this existence. it's the only shit know. nothing else matters but this whacked out existence.

2010-09-11T02:07:00.003-04:00

Every time I get news from my ghetto homeworld is one of death and misery. This time is my childhood friend's dad that checked out of earth ball. Got the message on the train via a voice mail. I felt cold and hopeless. Charon keeps rowing huh. I spoke to my friend earlier for almost two hours. He is hurting but keeping it in perspective you know. He gotta be the big man for everyone around. Life hits us where it hurts the most in the love place. I knew his dad from since I was a kid man. Now we won't ever meet again. We actually share the same birthday can you imagine? Well I told my friend to keep his head above the fray but grieve all the same. Time will heal the wound and then the good memories gonna trickle in. RIP Conrad. The beast claims us all eventually.

2010-09-09T19:37:00.002-04:00

Colder day signaling the onset of the dark rift time. Can be depressing but the seasons must follow the will of Yahweh. As Einstein said time is the antidote to the madness of everything happening at once. I plan to burn the cold time with art and a radical sense of purpose. Again there's the cautious optimism that I might get the moneys that the shitstem back home owes me. I envisage tech toys in my future and payments towards to Linux certification. I lust for that android tablet. This lusting is a good lusting. An opensource lusting even. Yet android is not all that opensource. In a perfect world I would prefer a pure Linux tablet but it's how it is. Meego might be the one actually. With Linux we can't go wrong eh. #Kewlness

2010-09-06T10:27:00.003-04:00

feeling strange. like am in a trance. a strange nice feeling but strange all the same. guess am watching the world with strange lens. they said someone got shot on our block last night. saw lots of cops around with their sirens and yellow tape. brooklyn is a violent city. but we can't hide in the shadows like vermin. i know is my camera i need to shoot my films. the vision is expanding. am growing and stretching my art. tried to buy an android tablet yesterday. all sold out. money goes back into the bank to wait. today is west indian carnival on the parkway in brooklyn. hope the eats are plentiful. hope the music is scary enough to wake up the whole bloody world. hope the cops don't shut us down before it's time. the damn cold is already creeping in. am feeling the west coast more and more. nyc is becoming a police factory man.

2010-09-03T23:24:00.002-04:00

man this time i almost didn't make it back to the grid, to the interwebs. that personal hiatus was crazy but i don't put everything on them nets you know. some things are better left personal. suffice it to say i met mad characters on my journey like kerouac on the road. damn america is more than what you see on television. one day i will tell all inshallah. so i missed couple classes. no biggie. will make that shit up per usual. now am back on the indenti.ca and it is still rocking. there's this idea running around about the death of the web. like apps and walled cyber gardens taking over. man i love the web. the latest wired features that. i dunno. i love the wild wild net man. so many apps are fucking useless man. but each to his beast as am always repeating like a mantra. the web will eventually win out. maybe the sheep love their prison apps but the mad ones want their freedom at all costs. the web just needs to evolve. like jump out at you and not just be a flat UI. finally my blog gets updated again. it must have been hating on me. i deserve it. i was stargazing in another world for too bloody long. welcome back poet linux fiend. speaking of linux am really loving sabayon man. so i figure i will install gentoo on the desktop alongside debian. i need to get linux certified man. been waiting too long to do that. i really love linux so why not get a job doing it you know. procrastination is the worst sin in the tech world.

2010-08-11T16:36:00.003-04:00

Installed Sabayon which is Gentoo based on the netbook. This is my first foray into Portage territory. Also my first foray into source based Linux. So far it shines though compiling takes mad long on this weak netbook. I might consider dual-booting with Debian Squeeze on the desktop. Took me mad long to try Gentoo but I knew I would eventually. Some favor source based Linux while others swear by their binary. I reckon each to his addiction. And Linux is never shy when it comes to addiction. Enjoy your Nix lust tech fiends.

2010-08-05T17:02:00.003-04:00

Another early weekend for me till the semester begins again. There's a metric concert in prospect park tonight. I should check it out. This Emily Haines woman is amazing. Her songs makes my brain shiver. A few artists have this magic. I got PHP running around my brain, tweaking it, reading like a maniac. It never ends but this feels right. Code writing is mystical. Like art. Got my Netflix account. The streaming is fantastic. Can even do it in Linux using Virtualbox. Same great quality. Am getting my foreign film binge on. can't believe I didn't get netflix sooner but it's all good. Everything in it's time and place eh. Thanks to Bobby for giving me the heads up.

2010-08-02T13:37:00.002-04:00

trust is number one. i have always believed that. when people you love start questioning you with questioning eyes you know that the trust is trashed. and there's nothing left but faith according to the cure. and what do you do? can't save the world. i have always wanted to stay pure but the journey takes its cost. you do what you have to and you don't look back. someday all this will end and as Morrison quipped it will all go up in flames. another quote comes to mind from the movie romeo is bleeding. streets gonna be filled with animals. keep breathing eh.

2010-07-29T14:44:00.004-04:00

These are psychotic times. The racists are out in full force. Don't mind them. They can't win the goodness, just the evilness. Funny how so called well meaning Christians are the top bigots. They forgot about the word love. They forgot that everybody must feed and the world belongs to us all. But I won't get stressed by the ignorant. Education is the key. Gotta use that to overcome. Get your wisdom on also. Get your hindsight sharp. Gotta stay sharp in this Armageddon.

2010-07-24T22:57:00.000-04:00

The heat gave me a headache today. It felt like my head was been broiled. Earth is boiling. Aliens will eat her. We will be spat out because we are poisonous. Some don't believe in the climate change theories. I know that everything rolls in cycles so the boiling one has begun but humans are hastening it with their poisonous ways. We will run out of time before we figure out how to protect ourselves. We have the intelligence to cope and adapt to a new earth but the wisdom is lacking. We are too greedy, selfish and arrogant. We waste the natural resources and create dangerous artificial ones. We want everything now but reality don't play that way. We need to pay it forward and change before it's too late. We need a spiritual awakening.

2010-07-23T00:18:00.003-04:00

Spent two days in Boston. Found it mucho relaxing. A different pace from NYC. Most of my time was spent in the restaurants and pubs of the city. The Chinese cuisine was the best IMO. Got addicted to Vietnamese cooking. They brought the steaming pot to my table with stewed catfish. I drank the warm sake and ordered more. My presentation went well. Ghetto home world is timeless. Caught two movies. Inception was incredible but Predators lacked a certain growl. I got to chill like a hobo in the park. The Chinese bus back to NYC was more than strange. Driver lost his way, had to double back. The rain on the roof was sweet though. Reminded me of way back when.

2010-07-16T13:55:00.006-04:00

I try to be addicted to now. The next second is not guaranteed. Is like when you rock climbing the only thing that matters is your next step up the sheer rock face. When you grip to the now you stay more focused. Eckhart Tolle expounds on this. For me that means getting my tech on to the ninja level, god mode even. It means php, web dev and Linux addiction. and don't forget the killer art of poetry, indie film and short fiction madness. This is my now. What is yours?

2010-07-13T13:15:00.004-04:00

I am all up in this tech addiction. Finally got my cheap phone tethered to my netbook for ubiquitous net access. The net goes where I tread. Works like a beast on Crunchbang Linux. It's all around me like the matrix sickness. Will I get sick of it? Maybe next Millennium. 4G tether could easily kill dsl or cable Internet. The companies will find a way to win in the end. I don't expect my mobile company to let us siphon free web access forever using tether. They will implement a payment plan based on data usage. It will suck so I don't hold my breath while surfing the interwebs on the bus and subway and baseball stand. I never play baseball but it is the best seat in the area to chill from the summer blaze. I am finally loving IRC again. Oh and congrats to the Spaniards for their victory in the world cup finals. They played like champions again. Netherlands has the worst luck ever. Some cried for what might have been. but Paul Octopus never fails.

2010-07-10T01:21:00.001-04:00

I dream in Android, tablets that is and when I wake there's only Chinese knockoffs that offer a weak alternative with version 1.6 and general sluggish behavior. So I ask like many other lusting tech heads where are the beautiful powerful Android tablets promised? The more prominent manufacturers are playing a waiting game it seems. They want to out do the Ipad in every aspect I reckon. They want to be the ones that dig it's grave and am all for that but come on tech houses you gotta do something now. The dog days of summer are upon us. We need that sweet tech in our eyes and hands right now opensource style. What do you say? We'll get it next week before we are older and the desire is spent?

2010-07-08T12:29:00.005-04:00

Worldcup 2010 dies on Sunday. Spain feels like the champion. They played like champions yesterday against the Germans in the semi-final. The octopus oracle divined right again. German football fans have turned against it in droves. They are calling for it's roasting. I say leave senor Octopus alone. The dutch better expect a hurricane on Sunday. They better stack their levees a lot higher. I don't care who wins. The ultimate winner is the game of football. Speaking of winners what did Lebron do to warrant such near mythic adoration? IMHO it is ridiculous. Bing and ESPN act like they've discovered the holy grail. Poor Microsoft always late to the party. IMHO Kobe, Artest, Gasol, Odom and the rest of the Lakers are the true riders of the moment. Furthermore a new crop of riders in high school and college are already burning to upset the old guard. Lebron better do his thing now right cos the time is flashing by. The Lebron deal looks like the Beckham deal in MLS for the LA Galaxy. A whole lot of hype and cash rewards and nothing to show for it. IMHO he would be most effective in Cleveland. Nevertheless a man's life is his to do what he gotta do for himself and his people. You don't have time to mess around. I hope he gets his ring wherever he lands.

2010-07-05T00:21:00.003-04:00

I don't think Linux will ever be appreciated for the gem that it is. The tech world has been given a chance to enjoy the ultimate freedom in an OS and the masses dismiss it and continue on their tyrannical loving path down the proprietary software rabbit hole. They claim all kinds of ignorance in their defense of their prison software. I think they are waiting for Linux to get super popular which it never will be. Nothing truly free is that popular. Freedom is a secret you discover and sometimes you might as well just keep the damn thing to yourself. I got pissed this week when some in my Linux group started extolling the virtue of the apple ipad. They actually had the audacity to preview it for the group. Well a member actually bought one justifying it with all kinds of double talk I didn't particularly care for. With a slew of android and other Linux tablets on the way why would you even contemplate buying a tablet from the most arrogant and elitist company in the world? I am mystified. Is that a Linux group? Where does the ipad fit in our Linux openness? Information belongs to the world. Apple does not see it that way. They tell you what to think, tell you what is good for you. It is like religion and colonialism. I know what's best for you they preach like we are bloody kids. Linux says here's the binary, tear it wide open, build and mashup, be young, stay young long like Nietzsche quipped. I don't want to judge anyone but this is not Linux not by a long shot. I am a poet by soul. I hate boundaries. Once you start imposing some elitist attitude I get real savage. I could never fit in that apple microcosm. So am wondering what the hell is going on with my Linux group. I mean there's much to do in Linux. Let's get to it and stop tripping with ipads and iphones that basically cripples innovation. I mean what is so bloody revolutionary about a prison machine? Imagine a beast like Jobs inventing the interweb. Without Linux we would be all lost man. Then again who knows what goes on in the minds of mortals. People just love their slavery. They follow the beast to the fire with a beautiful smile on their hypnotized faces.

2010-07-03T08:58:00.003-04:00

Yesterday both my teams got kicked out of the worldcup. Brazil relaxed after scoring first. Don't do that! This is a no no. Ghana on the other hand basically blew a sure chance into the semifinals. Now I feel a loss of interest for the rest of the cup. Maybe that's good. I can watch the games now without beating myself to death :) After all it is just a game huh! Hell no. Football is passion and madness and beauty and the be all and the end all. I went overboard so sue me other sports. I hope Messi does his thing today and kick the Germans out of the cup. I will be cheering for Argentina in about an hour. Eight more days and Worldcup 2010 is history. Another four years to contemplate and soak it all in. So much can happen in four years. I hope I to become a real tech ninja in that time. Attending Brooklyn college in the fall to get another computing degree one that is web dev centric. Looking forward to that. I will bring the Linux to them with no equivocations.

2010-06-30T17:41:00.002-04:00

the apple hype is getting ridiculous among the money crowd. they don't consider anything else. is like apple or bust. is like every time i watch ted they use apple machines. they are talking about some great thing for less fortunate peoples etc but they would not consider opensource. it seems to me that all these elitists bleeding hearts are just cattle and sheep. i mean where do you reconcile a closed system like apple with the ideas of freedom and progress for a better world. can poor people buy apple products? what image are you selling? they won't even consider linux. it's like it does not exist. linux and opensource runs the interwebs you ignorant elitists. seems to me it is them that really needs bloody help opening their eyes. couple days ago i watched a live ustream featuring some government hotshot. he was deep in the apple hype machine. owned all the toys. the way he talked is like that the only tech out there that is worth having is apple products. am trying to understand what is this shit about. people suffering in long bloody lines for a defective product a la iphone 4. this is madness. this is the tech that you paranoid fanboys want proliferating across the globe? what's up with your heads? how can you choose prisons over playing fields?

2010-06-28T19:15:00.005-04:00

brooklyn afropunk 2010 2010 was marvelous though it was mad hot. i came to see bands and hear great music and was not disappointed. i baked in the sun but am a tropical beast so it's all good. i thought kos was the best act. mos def played last and he rocked the mic like a true artist. but kos gave me the real vibe man. plus he performed when the light was still smiling on us. the bmx bikers were wicked too man. crazy death defying stunts that made me roar but also cringe that they would fall and kill themselves. they didn't and bless Yahweh for that. so i had a good time. the love was with me so i would have a good time. the graffiti artists did their stuff, painting a mural of animal protest. real beautiful man.

2010-06-24T16:06:00.002-04:00

when you are expecting something and you get something else well you get psycho. so i expected more scrilla than i got and am pissed. that will pass. guess the system is what it is. wanted to buy a tablet. will have to settle for desire. and wait. it's not what i do best but i adapt. and there's the #worldcup and my forays into #android app development to keep my mind buzzing and focused. i installed #eclipse and the #android sdk to begin my quest to become a developer. it will take a while but am willing to sacrifice. might as well get into some serious mobile tech and get #scrilla for it.

2010-06-19T01:21:00.002-04:00

Feasting on the World cup in South Africa to the max. Football is the shit man. Is like I am always hoping I will be alive for the next four years to catch that mad fest. Many upsets for the so called giant teams. European teams getting the blade. The South American teams have done their magic as usual. Ref robbed America today man. Was messed up. The officiating has been bloody awful. They better step the hell up. Gonna be mad interesting to see who goes all the way to the gold. #Vuvuzelas driving everybody mad. I know Africa is mad passionate but at least blow when a goal scores not the entire time. bees buzzing in ya head all day will trip anybody man. you gotta be mad drunk in them stadiums man to blank out that psycho sound. well that won't kill the game. wish i had a phone with full streaming access man to catch the games even when am commuting to work. it is a long bloody commute. at least wifi on the train and bus would have been perfect. but you know how it is. can't get it all. am rooting for Brazil and Argentina. #messi is the beast man. a magical football freak. no one can stop him. he runs circles around the opposition. zen stuff even. delightful shit. tis the best game in the world no doubt. And I wish I was drunk like a freak in SA. lol

2010-06-15T19:12:00.003-04:00

got poked again and detoxified. well not detoxified yet. still feeling freaked out. my stomach needs a bloody overhaul. should be the future where i'd go in a vat and come out fresh and clean. well at least the intro of our short short film is out there on youtube. might as well be clean to do this don't you think? got new ideas swirling in my head. wanna make it real edgy. might go with a silent thing. man i hate when my body betrays. and then strangers watch me like am a bloody fiend. not the kind of fiend i wanna be. always wanna be an art fiend is all. can't change the world though. people are people. feel like staying silent for now. just capture the art and keep my shit silent. too much talk. too many sycophants. and i need to harden and flatten my stomach.

2010-05-29T01:40:00.002-04:00

tweaked main site again. was considering wordpress but i decided to go with a fresh css template and the php scripts that i have modified. site looks cleaner. now it needs some gui embellishments. happy how i started the end of spring semester and the extended weekend. want to tweak this blog with a new skin. better get to it. hopefully you will meet a new theme when you finally decide to come back here for more of my tremblors..

2010-05-11T13:51:00.002-04:00

got my site pimped up more like how i want it. tweaked the css that needs constant tweaking. but it's almost like how i want it. got the simple pie php script tweaked again to display the dates of my feeds sans words, just numbers. the loves gots to pimp the graphics on it again. more like stretching it to fill in the blank spaces. i inserted some javascript drop downs at the top of the page. real minimalistic shit. i best remember to pay godaddy in june before they kick my ass of their servers. so today the love was pimping her stuff on ustream with the sustainability folks at nyu. good stuff no doubt. she's getting there in the thick of what we came here for. a good discussion about print and digital media and their carbon footprint. good to see that there are people who still care of the earth and it's future. nevertheless earth will kick us out if we continue in our babylonian ways. earth takes of earth sooner or later. as pink floyd sang "she will take it back.

2010-04-28T23:34:00.000-04:00

Someone I know died today. He was an old man, in his nineties. Last time i saw him was like a month ago. i shook his hand, guess for the last time. knew that he was on his last days though. his mortal coil has been severed. the flesh reverses to earth and time marches on. RIP Mr. Williams. been digging lots of Rishloo lately. that album from 2007 is absolutely brilliant. they sing deeper than the skin or proverbial surface idea. the music is powerful. definitely recommend them. would like to go to a concert, hope they come to nyc soon enough. summer is almost here. am like a seething serpent. am taking photos for my youtube projects. am understanding the meaning beneath the shroud. scrilla is seeping in with the idea that i could get most of the material goods i need for the summer. might be interesting. might get that camera cranked up on indie calibrated. never know right? time is now. now is the absolute relative time.

2010-04-20T07:52:00.000-04:00

Weekend was fun. Was the love Bday. We celebrated with the best of intentions. One year older does not count in non-linear imaginings. Got my new phone with metropcs. Hooked up with gps and unlimited net, text and calls. Good stuffs. I like the gps shit. Showing me up how they tracking us and they getting tracked by others. GPS is good for me cause am a total noob with directions man. Now I can just point north and set off with my madness. Who needs a slew of apps when you've got GPS and unlimited web? Am denting like crazy, plurking on the timeline like a tragic geek. Is all good. Am wired like a freak and loving it. Wish the phone was android based though. But that will be hustled in good time. Am a hustler for life. Gotta figure out how to tether the phone to my netbook so I can access the web on the netbook wherever I am. Now that would be sweet extreme geekness. Some say the speeds are more like dialup. Who gives a shit when u got net even in the boondocks. Got a call from a long time friend. A madman actually from back in the day. Haven't seen that fiend in a long long time. More than ten years. Will be interesting when we hook up. We were heavy metal freaks back in the day. Wonder what time has done to his fire? I would like to think he created more fire with better intentions. how did you fare sinister? What america do you have now as the years get more wicked? Like I said it will be interesting.

2010-04-14T11:22:00.001-04:00

Might be leaving for fresh smells soon. Same Brooklyn though. It is the mecca of the vision we have, of the films we want to unleash. I watched Fix last night. Sweet indie film by Tao Ruspoli. Thoroughly enjoyed it. A hell of a story and fascinating characters. Gotta keep finding them indie flicks man. Really inspires me. You can do a lot with film if you are not strangled by hollywood style expectations. Your scripts stay raw. You tell your story with the realest delivery. Fix is that kind of film. Might be getting money. Hope that money is real. Would bring me to the cusp of buying my first camera to start shooting the vision. Is all I think about. Art and Linux and Opensource. Can't wait forever to create the stuff that you were born with. I mean I have published poetry books and in a way am kinda beyond that now though am a poet infinite. That poetry needs to be shot and remixed on screen. The artist is always growing, mutating, shifting, bleeding, dreaming forever. We stop when our lungs collapse. We are finished when we are finished. Bearing the only grudge of having not done better with the vision that was bestowed with divine intention. This is poetry month. I better get back to my paranoid excavations. The poetry as thief of fire..

2010-04-10T13:04:00.002-04:00

so i woke up early as usual fired up #pino and saw an #identi.ca post about the plane crash in Russia. just like that the upper echelons of Poland got disappeared from planet earth. crazy huh! must be a dark day in Poland man. I offer my sympathy to the Polish people. that's existence at it's basic. death. comes in all forms but it comes. everyone got their ticket to the funereal party. we gotta respect each other every chance we get. and give that flower to the living whenever you can. the web is blazing with that news. no stone is left unturned. the final answer will be known and people will move on to other mundane musings. for now the eyes watch Poland. and death watches us all with a grimace and a grin. it is never satiated.

2010-04-08T13:05:00.001-04:00

We are scattered among the herd. The poets and artists struggle each day to get through to the herd. Sometimes one pulls free from the matrix. Does not happen often. When it happens we rejoice. Nevertheless we know it is an unending battle. The herd like them apple fanboys just want want to consume without asking why? It's like that thought is much too difficult. It pains them to ask. It feels like a tumor to ask. They gathered like sheep for the ipad that restricts them in every which way. They hollered like they had seen heaven. Amazing how they endorse an innovation killing company. But it does not amaze me. The herd loves their cesspool. For them the skin is all. Do they bother to look beneath the facade? Nay. I say leave them in the matrix. Let them rot behind the barbwires. In an earlier age Jobs was a hacker then he sold out to the matrix. Became an agent. Became a butter man. Sliding hands. Slithering tongue. The kraken will eat them all in the end. While we gather on the open source shores watching the freedom of the ocean.

2010-04-01T16:33:00.000-04:00

April fool day. Who will be fooled enough today? We are all fools actually. And it is a good thing. Too much delusion and illusion going around. People thinking that they are in control of something or the other. So get fooled today and tomorrow. Will future generations be foolisher? Lol. Remains to be seen. When we wake up again a million eons from now we will all have a good foolish laugh. Happy april fools day mortals. That's the spirit. Be foolish and happy

2010-03-31T17:07:00.001-04:00

Get rid of doubt once and for all. That is a sure crippler. I went through a kind of nightmare and doubt was nagging me till my pressure rose to the ceiling. I forgot lil wayne said there's no ceiling. We need to fly out of the doubt ratio and up the ante on eating them with art. Time for feeding. Time for eating like a beast. I aim to eat all the art in the universe and spit out again remixed and mashed up. That's how am feeling now. Art never left me. Some shit tried to trip it but it is relentless. I was born for this. Created by Yahweh for this. Take a sand, make a world, light a sun and orbit it. NY is the right backdrop. But any city will do. I love cities. Now am watching it like Neo when he was freed from the matrix and then Morpheus takes him back in to see the oracle and Neo watches the matrix, the false world he was trapped in as the car rolls by. He has this incredulous look on his face. That's how am watching the world now. Like seeing it new again. Leaving the doubt behind. Letting the false fall away. Let the false fall away. It's the only way forward.

2010-03-30T14:45:00.002-04:00

humans are my brothers. sometimes they are my enemies. i tried to get to the work grid earlier. the rain was relentless. yesterday i got drenched getting to medicaid stuffs. it's a bummer to get sick. the aftermath is the worst. gots to take care of all kinds of shit. got to take meds and shit. i need a zen center to chill my chi. but there will be humans there. i have turned machine freak for sure. people phobic no doubt. might as well merge with machine. need to get disappeared man. the days speeding mad fast. the beast speeding behind. got back on irc. helping out and getting help. that hospital stay was strange. reminded me of the room in PR. though the screaming was unnerving. this world is pain. and drugs. at least am getting my daily fix of new music from lastfm. good stuffs. might get a better desktop this week. haven't made money lately. hope i do soon. got a poem up on youtube. that counts for something huh. my youtube handle is s3eds. look me up or down. who knows where the spiral begins.

2010-03-29T08:35:00.002-04:00

you might say i was reckless. i left the body fall. well they say man fell from his throne. am human. i rose back up to change the fate. and the art and the tech flourished. all in a days work. hated the probing though by them meds people. they just love to probe a poet. now i reckon i got a big ass med bill. will see how that goes. i decided once and for all to change my lifestyle. at least i got spring break to gather my wits. definitely feeling the youtube vibe. posted something up last night and revamped catharcyst.com. like i said all in a weekends art tech binge. thanking God for small mercies. the beat goes on. life is a constant struggle. you struggle then you struggle if you lucky. am i lucky? am just poet. and linux fiend.

2010-02-18T07:13:00.002-05:00

tech hitting you every which way? there's no escape. the noise is deafening on the interwebs. we are all deaf but don't know it yet. what will emerge? tech mutants gnawing desperately to kill the noise but only creating a lot more thunder. i might move to the desert to find peace and relief. or just jack in forever and become a binary signal lost in the noise.

2010-02-14T18:49:00.002-05:00

survive at all costs. there's nothing more important. nothing will get easier even if we have all this tech. might become a trap even. the fear is coming where people trust the machine more than each other. face to face will be taboo. my avatar speaks for me. the meaning of human mutates rapidly. the digital divide between generations widens. who fires the first shot? who scorches the sky?

2010-02-13T00:42:00.003-05:00

google brought the buzz to ya gmail and the noise became unbearable for some. so filter ya shit already. there's privacy issues that will be ironed out eventually. all I know is there's not really privacy on the interwebs. someone somewhere is always watching. who are the gatekeepers? you gotta pay the piper. you will be watched and cyber probed. you gotta be smart on the web. you don't enter all your private info just because there's an input box daring you. where does that urge come from to want to tell all? what does my age have to do with you? surf the net like a tech ninja but you too can get sucked into a cyber nightmare. this is man made. man made shit breaks. it's how it is. one day the gatekeepers might come for me accusing me of doing shit that I never did. they might come for you. if i was wise i would have ducked out of the web already. got of the grid but the info stream is much too addictive. am a strung out digital native.

2010-02-02T21:08:00.002-05:00

another semester. doing courses i don't feel just to maintain full time status. they cancelled the good courses i wanted to dabble in. that's how life is. a bitch for every other moment. wish i could stay online all the time. get my degree online and work online. dealing with real time people becomes more unbearable by the day. is like i gotta lie and feign interest in their mundane pissings. thought i would enjoy school but now it's like heavy machinery on my neck. colleges teaching you all kinds of shit. man i just wanna get to my coding so stop feeding me shit like how to be a leader. i don't want to be a fucking leader. been there done that. i just need to code, design databases, work the backend even. can they like give you that choice to skip all the shit they let you pay for? some people wanna be shrinks so give them the shrink shit they need. the truth is the guru coders honed their skills out of the classroom. is like i didn't have to come to school to learn this shit. but you need the paper to show them that you are one of them. like you belong to the fraternity. working in school has been the best for my development. the hands on training has been marvelous. all classes should be like that. get straight to the point. get ya hands dirty right of the bat. i need my hands dirty. fuck theoretical shit. man am a poet first and foremost. i tinker with words. am a wordsmith freak. can't be teaching me how to conduct myself in the society. i wanna code society. damn. they better tweak colleges now man else shit will never change.

2010-01-26T11:14:00.000-05:00

funny how microblogging swept it's father aside. the attention span of the net generation rejected long rambling tirades. keep it kosher at 140 characters already they screamed from the madness of the interwebs. technology obliged. yes sir it capitulated to the whims of lost children. i got swept too. i hardly come here anymore. eventually seeds madness will die. only to reside in archives. it's how it is. everything ends and stales. we move on like the selfish species we are. kicking the past aside, stretching to uncertain futures. how long will this romance with social networking and microblogging last? maybe the divorce proceedings has already started. might be a bitter thing eh? who gets stabbed. who gets the right to visit the offspring. get here already mobile web. the smartphones are still software clunks. people rave about how their phones can do this and that. it is still medieval to me. the revolution is years in the future. i could settle for the N900 though. it is the best one among the lot. definitely a cool device for a linux fiend like yours truly. maybe i get one soon. maybe i invent my own sick ultra geeky alternative. get here already future.

2010-01-24T15:58:00.003-05:00

parents came back safe to brooklyn last night by way of washington and puerto rico. i rode the air train to the airport with a sick hip hop song in my headphones. it was stuck on repeat via #vlc. the machine drives me and i don't feel fear. robot air train signalling a brave future. they rode back with me on the train and moms would not believe that the train drove itself. well the machines inches ever so closer to total domination. they better have a killswitch. well am still addicted to machine world. spending my every waking moment interfacing with the machine. whether it be writing my mad tales or trying to conquer #php or getting off on #identi.ca i am the quintessential tech fiend. but you are too. you know who you are.

2010-01-19T15:14:00.003-05:00

got back to the grid today. feeling rested. my stomach is tripping though. it wants to eat like a maniac. i can't defy it but i don't want to binge. it wants to call my vegan bluff. so am getting this haiti poem flesh out. real tragedy man. mother nature opened up again to remind us of the fragility of our time. will we unite? nay. now they dumping on wyclef after he has been so instrumental in helping his people. why would you blame him now in this time of crisis? something smells here. am i surprised? nay. the haters are always gathered in the dawn to rage against goodness. but goodness is the ultimate warrior..

2010-01-15T14:00:00.003-05:00

so am in the hotel. they debating where to go and what to do. i just need a hard stiff drink. the festival is heating up. let's go while we young or old or haggard? tis our last day in PR. wake up fiends.

2010-01-15T02:03:00.002-05:00

so am in puerto rico till saturday. came in on wednesday to attend and present at a conference. did my thing yesterday. went well. ready to go back to ny now. the san sebastian festival started earlier. streets are filled with the young and unbidden. mad party man. felt alive but then i came back to the hotel to lie low.

2009-12-29T21:20:00.002-05:00

2009 fading fast. blinking out to the other side of eternity. was it a good year? will you measure it by the amount of tears you shed? how will it measure you? the questions and demands no doubt will continue. existence as a slippery serpent. choose your paths wisely. empty your ego. the paradigm shifts again. bend to my fate. i move on...

2009-11-26T20:09:00.003-05:00

sometimes you wonder how the hell did you get here. then you realize it was the place you choose unconsciously long time ago. the bigger question is where are you headed. why would you move forward anyways. been watching stargate universe. has me thinking all kinds of crazy thoughts. can we get to the end of time? how would it feel to get to the end right now by using tech and then watching your life unfold infront of you. so much stuff out there in the unknown. religion preaches we are not meant to know but i wonder man. surely we were not bred to be slaves. we must have fallen somehow from the power. now if only we remembered how to get back. that should be our quest. find a way through the muck to the real. the hatred blinds us. the bullshit blinds us. the petty enslaves us. today is thanksgiving. what are we giving thanks for. for being ignorant? the first step to get back is to love each other. that for sure is indisputable. i give thanks for that. for the love i get and the love i give back. am taking the first step back to the enlightenment.. happy thanksgiving.

2009-11-20T01:51:00.003-05:00

let me drop a line here before this blog thinks that it has gone extinct. better to go insane than extinct. what to say? how to spill? well am working working working. jerking to the beat of the city. all wrapped up in social media. i need to monetize this. what's the point of all that info binging? the lucky ones are raking in tons of loot from the social store and here we are in the labyrinth without a clue.
i will have to make this weekend a renaissance one. dig deeper than i want to. find out what lies beneath the pulse of the new web. maybe nothing lies there out in that info glut but twisted agony of a dying race.

the aliens are coming. a new web is awakening. it is much too flat.

and we don't need them censors here. they reek. they spoil the flow.

flow Internets. you feel me?

2009-11-08T03:42:00.001-05:00

so it shall be done. they get into your shit and think that they know about you. they are parasites, succubus even. tis the same old story. and it never gets old. i swear i saw that shit coming. i guess i played along. was it for me? nay. for a far henious interest. to look good infront of the beast. they want you to bow infront of the beast for crumbs. wow. amazing cretinous creatures, running around like their heads have been hacked off. crazy man. i never asked them for anything. i was on my way. they polluted my space. get of creatures of the damned. flee back into your stale ship. so i leave this shit back in the hole i made for the ignorance. lucky me i made a hole in the past for the ignorance huh i will find it yet. i know what am looking for. you can't tell me when you are just a rotting living dead. what have you learned here on earth? but to lie and steal and cheat and pretend. damn you can pretend but we figured you out so long ago.that's we don't ever get twisted. i never get it twisted. don't ever get it twisted poet. damn.

ps. this was for an earlier bullshit. am calmer now

2009-10-28T23:45:00.002-04:00

no mercy for the merciless. ubuntu karmic comes out in couple hours. so you better be ready for the new thing. am tweaking in #ubuntu-release-party. linux is rising to the top. the cream will rise to the top. i get addicted more everyday. good to see linux moving. ubuntu doing their thing, same as fedora and debian and gentoo. people gotta realize that open source is the way to go. no mercy for the merciless. open the gates. the children needs the space to play. can't stop the flow. and why would you want to do that? but people are different. some can't feel freedom. they want to be told what dreams they should dream even. i keep dreaming in linux open source code.

2009-10-23T00:22:00.002-04:00

I changed my site template again. You could say am experimenting with this joomla business. Am still getting problems editing the css in the templates. I know what I want but when I make changes they are not always implemented depending on the template. Guess the authors use some kinda bizarre naming scheme. Will get past that hurdle no doubt. Now I took that cuny profiency test last evening. Was rather interesting. Had to compare two essays. One was about savants and their physical disabilities and the other was about absolute pitch. i think i did a cool job though i started kinda tentative. it's the usual with me. i hardly take notes. i just get into it straight away feeling out the flesh and planting my hooks. sooner rather than later i dig deep and taste the soul meat. they might penalize me for waywardness. we need to pass this to graduate. i reckon i passed. what's with exams anyway? does it tell the truth about the human condition? what's the rationale behind all those tests? gotta be more than separating the wheat from the chaff. am neither. am a walking fiendish contradicting poet. let's break down the new world order and separate truth from fiction. and now there's a psp in my bag that begs to be modded. will it get it's lustful wishes. depends machine fiend on whether you become sentient in the next 15mins.

2009-10-14T02:24:00.001-04:00

something has to give. we could be on the cusp of something productive. will keep the details to ourselves for now. but i mean winter shouldn't be a complaining time only. at least the scrilla can flow in our direction. time will show the path in the hands of God. this stargate universe show got me thinking about all kinds of strange meanings of our existence here. i mean this could never be all.the ancients left lots of messages. unfortunately we still haven't decoded it. will it be done in my lifespan. i sure hope so. i know we can hyper jump to the nether worlds. it's the only way to get to the edge of the universe. i feel like we are been tested here on planet earth. the ancients are watching and waiting to see how long it will take us to figure it out. well we know our serpent egos have dumbed down our perception. our hatred is the thorn in the proverbial side our advancement. there are worlds out there. civilizations that ascended beyond human. some will say deal with the here and now. what the hell is here and now. am living now every second man and all i see is boring repetitions of vacuous humanity. we better wake up man. maybe i get to see extra terrestrials before i vacate this time and space. poet wishing as usual.

2009-10-08T23:30:00.002-04:00

I came back to madness flower with a vengeance leaving catharcyst with the linux stuffs. My linux job postings are on catharcyst while I rant here once more. Eventually I will build a css linux job site with bells and whistles and all the good shit that makes the new web shimmer. Stuffs like jquery and mootools. I would say my week was mad productive but this weekend starting tomorrow is sink or get disappeared. Got this powerpoint project to hack to death for the college so I better get it cranked out for next week. Things are looking good but there's the proverbial unknown variables. I might as well write a new app with this unknowns man. Something coded to change my state forever. A beautiful cascading portal even. Started simulacra and simulation. Taking my time with it because this is deep shit man. He hits the nail and never lets up. I come up for air because I might drown the world. Sounds like a good line for a poem. I will extricate it when the time comes. In the mean time the weekend beckons creative phantoms. Let's haunt together above the fray and septic petty datasets.

2009-10-04T17:40:00.001-04:00

So I crave a smartphone real bad but it has to run open source. The HTC dash looks real nice but it runs windows mobile OS. More cash to excavate to get the G2. The desire to control my interface can't be overstated. Plus this Augmented reality vibes has me salivating man. Tag the world according to your illusion. It's gonna be crazy out here. Advertisers must be dreaming up all kinds of paranoid schemes to monetize that interface man. I know hackers are way infront the curve. Imagine pointing your smartphone at a building and seeing it's website? The blurring of realities is almost done. What is real? How do you know what you are pointing at is real? Imagine the metaverse superimposed on the real? You walk through a physical door and come out into a web side street. How cool is that? How disturbing even.

2009-10-02T02:36:00.002-04:00

my birthday sped without glitches. i binged on myself for five days and went back to school and work with a fresher harder outlook. the highlight was chilling with the love. we got our drank on. we drank our fill. we loved. age does not matter. and people don't believe me so i don't spill it anymore. the cold is sure flowing in. need that heater soon. still in the labyrinth though the minotaur vanished eons ago. it's how it is. the days of my life. i guess am feeling school especially C++. the music class does nothing for me. my microblogging can attest to that ill feeling. it too shall pass. it all passes and then we gasp at another birthday fleeing into the netherworld. in the meantime i exhale, inhale, bleed, burst, dream, innovate, be.

2009-09-25T16:00:00.000-04:00

on a five day mini vacation. my birth time. get wasted. get back to the basics. slow down and tune out. do i reflect? not really. just wanna get perspective. i feel like am moving in the right direction. mad grateful for everyday above ground. Jah bless. my tech life burgeoning. mad happy about that. getting mad skillz. future beckoning. need them skillz. thinking about the Linux certification. need to get that. well happy birth time to me now. kewl.

2009-09-22T00:49:00.002-04:00

a winter a throw away but fall is here. my birth time coming up. older and scarier. the joke played out. last laugh for fiends only. when you live in new york you are a fiend. not a bad thing. art fiend kills with brush and pen and clicks. maybe i will ride the subway incessantly on my birth time. swigging from the proverbial chalice. dusting some for the riders gone. end up at the end of time. tweak the hour. 2012 in my face. now what? well reboot and upload the essence of what i am. trying hard to get the web development beast under my skin. my challenge begins with me and ends with me.

2009-09-02T19:47:00.003-04:00

saw my niece who's here from the uk last night. Funny how dna is man. She looks like her brother but also like her aunt and got the mannerisms of both her brothers. Said she wanna come back next year. NY can do that to you. Mad city luring the unsubs. Soon enough they get ensnared in the morass of big city callousness. Well labor day is almost here. The beast gonna come out on the packway. The unsubs will try to prey on the innocent. West indian people gonna do their thing to the maximum. Am looking forward to that jam especially the jouvert partying. Last year I was a fiend on the parkway. Lookout world fiendish ways continues unabated. Done know you gotta play hard, come hard, no compromise. The beast never compromises till the worm stinks our breath. Lots of unsubs on campus. Everybody chasing the promise of education promised bliss. Grab your bliss wherever you can. Please don't stand in my sun. catch your own light. We can share a light whenever you feel like it. Get that angry fix for the end promises misery. Saw sleep dealer. Cool film. Love the atmosphere of the movie. Mad future man. America locking borders. America need cheap labor. Technology solves the capitalistic dilemma.
It's how it is. Sometimes you can't even hate the xenophobes sometimes. They can't help feeling fearful. Everybody wants to feel secure. We all blame outside forces for our helplessness. Tis the nature of the human beast animal. We can't take responsibility for our weakness. So blood flows endlessly when another despot figures out how to channel that fear into psychotic paranoia. Billy did it. He bankrupted the banks. Let's kill his seeds so that his kind never repeats their history. And the blood never stops flowing. River red legacy. Beasts out. Brutal music to the soundtrack of our timeline.

2009-08-27T13:45:00.002-04:00

decided to stalk partial vegan again. Happened after I vomited. Felt the need for more cleansing. I reckon it starts with the physical. Then maybe just maybe I will banish ghosts of the faultlines. The fish offerings here kinda sucks though unless you are a chinese food junkie. Best to buy my fish from the fish markets and concoct all kinds of fishy treats. Will see what gives. If I have a job I have fish. Simple as that. They love fish on the asian continent or maybe the fish loves them. Back home in Dominica I got fish like every other day. From nefarious junkies or the fishermen themselves. Didn't matter. Now the junkies are far behind. Junkies here don't fuck with fish. I smell chicken everywhere I spin. I smell people too. Humans bleeding. Humans feeding. Humans breeding. Same old doctrines from antiquity. In the matrix we were being grown. That could start with gene manipulation. I grow a techie. You grow a sports hero. Go figure. Might get interesting. I could get to backup my life in my own garden on my very own tree of life.

2009-08-10T15:20:00.003-04:00

the weekend went well. More than well, greater than best. I got to act in a film. Virginity busted with a little part as a sleazy computer worker in a college computer room. Man that was exciting. I mean I came to the set to help my friends do this short film and then I had to fill in. I didn't flinch. The poet never flinches went to comes to art. This better be the beginning of my film aspirations. I mean came to ny to do just that. Direct my own films. I have written screenplays. They need to be filmed already. I reckon working on a film set is the best experience I can get. So getting little acting parts will definitely boost my feel for the whole movie making process. Can't wait to see the finished product. Damn a sleazy computer geek. Never saw that one coming poet. And then I ate sushi for the first time ever. Happened in union square. Bought it at the whole foods place across the street. A moment to savor. At first it tasted strange. Then we sprinkled the proper seasonings and the flavor melted sweet in my mouth. I could get used to that raw fish surrounded by rice and seaweed and ginger bits. Union square was wicked man. The real people as always doing what we do best. We did an online interview for innomind. Talked about love and life and people. The usual suspects. Good vibes. Summer is the best time. Plus we are children of the sun. warm blooded artistic fiends etching the journey as we go along. Tis about the journey man. I don't believe life is linear. You can shift sideways. Step of the grid. Step out of space and time even. That is the ultimate rush I reckon. Imagine how the deity feels.
Imagine watching from the view of a butterfly. Imagine breaking up into infinitesimal pieces and every tiny bit watching with it's own vision. Then recombine and stream all the views into one big vision. Damn imagine the sweet insanity.

2009-07-31T03:49:00.002-04:00

getting a new converse is cause for celebration. haven't done that in a while. guys in my workspace are gettingn new macs and latest iphones so what am i waltzing about. nothing really but u gotta celebrate when you still have time i reckon.. the gig is really good for my future references. i am learning the essentials. the essentials is the way to start. summer heat is sometimes too overbearing. feel like i have a second skin. nevertheless i choose the heat over winter everytime man. would i choose the iphone 3g s over htc now that i am seeing the awesomeness of the apple signature? no way opensource bubbles in my blood. so am microblogging more often than writing here. i reckon it's cool though. i will always come here when i have something real serious to say. not that i don't dent or twitter important stuff. i have more time to think before posting. twitter represents the lifestream constantly flowing. regular blogging can get in there but it is much too slow for the real life stream. gather your thoughts and fire away. you can always twiiter in between lulls in your flow..

2009-07-24T12:02:00.001-04:00

Palm upgraded their Pre OS to sync back with Itunes. What's the deal about the insane desire for Itunes man? Why is it the most coveted must have music app on the tech planet? Doesn't matter to me. I have my exaile player rocking the latest tunes. Latest as in Killswitch engage's latest cd. This is a must have for the rugged metalcore fans out there. Haven't gone to a concert yet. That's a shame. Money or the lack thereof sometimes stinks life but you stand your ground with your nostrils flared and maintain your composure. Well school bumped of my classes to fulfill their need for some kind of democratic process or rather economic paranoia in the face of economic downturns whatever that means. I chose the same classes and sailed on. Went to the siren concert last weekend. Was a blast. Got my angry fix of our modern music. Rocked out. Dranked out. Took mad photos. Japandroids was the bomb. Excellent music man. I recommend them a thousand percent. So that's another siren disappeared with Odysseus. We can only hope for longer breath here. Otherwise am knee deep in CSS stylings. Learning the code hardcore. Reworking a site from tables to CSS. From the grave to the beautiful and passionate birth pang. Good things. Am learning to look at my world with CSS eyes. Long journey. Will get there and then there will get inside me and never return to that web 1.0 grave. Got tons of programming books to read. A bit old though but it's the same damn code. The same rules apply. Rework the old into a beautiful vision. And where's that damn new poetry I was suppose to expectorate unto the web? Better get to it sloth king. Stop hanging upside your head poet. Stop hanging poet!

2009-06-29T18:03:00.000-04:00

Got a gig in school working in the computer place doing web development. Tis like a dream come true for now. This is the hands on experience I lusted for. The best way to learn is to get your hands dirty. No one can accuse you of standing on the sideline. But would it matter if they do? Not a bit unless they accuse me of being an apostate to my art. Now that's a different matter. I am writing scripts for the leap that must be made. You always have to plan your way forward no matter how unorganized you are. People might think that you are a slacker but they have no fucking idea of the flood that will be unleashed when the time is right and the stars are aligned properly in the sky. You are your biggest obstacle, your mind that is. Am a push it till my soul bleeds. Am always in the fire. We should do our best every chance we get. Giving your best is the best thing you can do for your soul. Don't forget your soul man. Keep it excited. Keep it young. Keep it real.
Last night I caught the awards show dedicated to MJ and I gotta say I was disappointed with the Lil Wayne fading mystique. It's high time to come again. Not every hip hop song is exciting. Seems weezy does not even realize that. He sang a lame ass song about the same old tired themes. I know weezy has mad money but come on man. Where's the profound vibes? They should have never ended the show with weezy and entourage. Jay-z would have been the perfect artist to lower the curtains. His song about the death of autotune is so poignant. It's time to bury that insipid beast man. You had your time tune beast. Go rest for another 50 years. I guess T-pain would beg to differ. He actually spoke about haters when he got his award. Sad little man thinking that people actually hate him when it is him that is hating the music by compromising it.

2009-06-22T16:12:00.000-04:00

Got the number that I have been waiting for. Is it the mark that revelations said we would suffer not to have? Ah well I have joined the crowd staring at crop circles for signs of aliens. Seriously what do you think the crop circles are? Am not one to dismiss what I don't understand. I deleted that arrogance long before I could fly. There has to be other dimensions. It could never be that simple. You born you die and that's the final cut? Something is not right here. Somebody left out something. Somebody deliberately fucked with history to keep us blinded. Now the question is why. Is it about power? I think it is. Knowledge is king. The real truth is divine. He who holds the knowledge controls everything. Our true mission then is to find that truth. It is the reason why we are here. Unless we find it we will never rest in peace or move on to the next level. The fortunate ones acquire this truth very quickly. Some reject it. Most are too caught up dying for mammon. Actually mammon was invented to divert us from that quest. Nothing is at it seems. Everything has been planned. Babylon was conceived Millenia ago. I know there are books that I need to read. I need a lot more training. You better be prepared in this Armageddon we are living in right now. A test is coming. The indigo test. Your success will depend on your awareness..

2009-06-13T23:41:00.001-04:00

my weapon of choice is art. am a poetic warrior lurking in the shadows, then pouncing when you least expect it. danger skulks around the corner. guard your souls herr mortals. my housing situation is whack. i need to break through. how and when that happens beats me man. it is not in my hands but the choice is always there. in the mean time i cope and curse. i hear dominica music pounding next side. wck i think. they must be having a blast. if the camera had a big ass sd card i would have ventured there to shoot the flames. i can only take seven pics at a time. well seven is perfect right? otherwise i did good today. got my sweat on. pimped my site catharcyst with more features. now am haunting the night for all it's worth. come haunt with me....

2009-05-30T12:15:00.000-04:00

I guess I will see how the summer plays out. I do intend to put in work, do my time so to speak. A lot on my plate. Self motivation, constant prodding by my id. Ninja tech and madsane art swelling my mind. At least I know what I need to do to accomplish a semblance of proverbial success. I pretty much need to get mad good in designing database driven websites. CMS is the real thing. Whether joomla or asp.net. I learned a lot this semester especially in that asp.net class. Can't stop practicing though. Can't forget the little bugs that cramped my style in the end man. Suddenly my code was tripping and my project spat errors on the screen. It was well worth it though. We learn when we correct the errors. First diagnose, then troubleshoot and fix the offending bugger. Am a better tech ninja for that. Big thanks to Professor Raj and Naples man. Tech ninjas no doubt.

Time to compile that poetry book. The words are written. Time to scar another page. Bleed like life intended. Bleed for me immortal word for you outlast me.

2009-05-20T13:08:00.001-04:00

The year is almost half way through. By now all promises have been scuttled. I reckon we keep new ones. Still waiting for my monies from my first life. Won't let that stagnate my new world. I feel fresher than September. A million ideas swirling in my head. Some closer to fruition than others. I stay sharp. I fight the darkness. God oils my lanterns. New York is a rebel life. Gave me back my confidence. It needs more tech though. The infrastructure is obsolete. Where is the ubiquitous WIFI? The always on net needs to be on in the streets and in the subway too, not just in our apartments. The blurring of virtual and real space won't happen unless the hardware matures enough to take advantage of the apps that are being coded to usher in the metaverse. I feel like America has fallen of the tech grid. Only a few are actually creating and inventing the new tech. Most of us are merely consumers. A select few hold the power. And you can't count out the venture capitalists. They hold the purse strings. Nevertheless it takes little money to code the next big idea. When it takes off the capitalists comes calling with wads of cash. Either way you can't lose if you squirrel away a portion of that loot with the hindsight that nothing lasts forever not even Google. I can't wait to see what comes next. Read about chrome using a much faster javascript engine. The article says that it will make the new web apps a lot more faster. Stallman hates it. Stallman is a purist. There gotta be compromise. I think firefox will have to step up though. Chrome is much faster than all the other browsers and it will get faster. Plus it is a lean machine. We are running it on windows 7 and it rocks. I am ravenously waiting for the Linux version. I know that I can port it to Ubuntu but this netbook atom architecture is another story. Who needs the agravation? I might as well just wait. Linux got cool browsers man like epiphany and galeon etc. When chrome is ready for us we will be ready. Still there are privacy issues. There always is.

2009-05-14T16:24:00.004-04:00

Straight up open mic later today. our book is published. a student compilation of the best work from our publication writing club. feels good no doubt. i have five pieces in there including a flash fiction piece called spiritual burn. this is where i thrive. no matter what is bugging me as long as i get the words sutured into the canvas then am free. this is my world. a complicated persistence netherworld. would i change it? nay. keeps me alive. turbulence won't let me die. am constantly feeding on the stimuli that surrounds me. chi and karma bumping heads. yin and yang jostling for first position. does it matter what wins? i reckon something wins today, an idea takes second best. tomorrow who knows what jumps up out of the primeval stream? so this dominica guadeloupe hiphop dancehall mashup got me excited man. it sounds so fresh compared to the mainstream american hip hop. same with grime man. when i saw klickly vid on youtube i was like blown away man. them guys look rough and real. sans gimmicks man. it's how they live in Guadeloupe man. most of them go there illegally to hustle. imagine traveling on a boat so small that you can literally touch the water. they travel on these to get to the exciting life just next door. it's how it is man. why should the wealth belong to a privileged few? the hustle is real. their music is real. big up youtube. youtube opened it up for all the warriors. gives us a voice. some want to stop it. don't get it twisted. only foolish people think that they can stop the march of the new. the new is persistent. it feeds on a dire necessity to remain relevant and fresh. stay fresh or wither. i embrace the new and respect the past. no grudging. big up humanity. God gave us life not to stand and stare but to perform and love everything. dig everything. get the soul rush.

update. Open mic rocked..

ELECTRIC PURGATORY

2009-05-12T00:53:00.001-04:00

excellent..

2009-05-09T18:00:00.004-04:00

The toshiba power adapter is dead. My brother did a cool modification that let's me use the HP Mini adapter to power on the toshiba. It works although the battery hardly charges. So I charge the netbook and then plug in the toshiba. We need our tech all the time man. I am a plurker now. I dig the timeline. We are social beasts. Considering brightkite. Ravenous tech appetite. The poet hasn't disappeared though. I got five literary pieces in a school poetry compilation. Looking forward to that. Got an open mic coming up too. Burst on the mic. Sting the world with my poetic spit. I have started recording videos using the netbook cam. Good vibes man. You use what you have to get the art. Never a dull moment. Never back down. Adversity breeds creation.

2009-04-29T13:01:00.002-04:00

This netbook works nice. Got it as a gift. an HP mini 1000. i took of xp. hacked ubuntu unto it and now it shines. guess i will write a review for cnet. guy in class laughs at it. what the heck does he know? this is net ready man. it got ssd hard drive man. the wifi works wicked. i have been fine i guess. i have seen everything and nothing. too much hurt in the world. the world will hurt you. was suppose to be reading poetry right now. my soul don't feel it. i need to make my movie. will have to start with this webcam. no money yet from the haters. it's how it is. my lows and highs copulating.

Led Zepellin - Stairway to heaven - live 1971

2009-04-20T22:35:00.001-04:00

the strangest life i have ever known

Behind The Scenes - Dominica Tenement Yard

2009-04-16T12:53:00.001-04:00

cool vibes.

2009-04-13T09:43:00.001-04:00

They say that the internet will overtake television in 2010. I believe that television will merge with the net to create one seamless medium. I know the kids for sure are already living that reality. You can basically watch tv online. TVU player streams television to your machine in real time. Just one example of the new age that is dawning. There's no going back. Sad though to watch how lots of scared people try to delay the inevitable. They keep putting up barriers. The tech juggernaut will be never be stopped.. And let me say something about the media. It is clueless about tech. Reporters better get a grip man. They report about malware and hackers and tech things with a naivety that is pitiful. Mortals whenever you want to get the low down on what is really going down you better off hitting up the tech sites like Sophos and Darknet. I mean I heard a reporter talking about the conficker worm this morning. He goes "and do update your antivirus". What antivirus is he talking about? Which one gives the best protection? Does he even have a clue? Damn they are living in a bubble man while the truth waits to be revealed.

2009-04-06T23:02:00.003-04:00

spring break and easter blood bunnies. free time. downtime. building websites for strangers. might get to the square or down the hatch. let's look forward to avarice. i need a ride on the money machine. the fiends might call me. i could get lucky. and i wouldn't have to pay the piper. sometimes you do get away from the piper's cost. like Tupac said once you figure out the game then you overs it. it's all behind you man. easier said that done. heavy is the soul that weeps for man. i want a psp. i want a camera. i want a VR station to jack into. i want to astral hack. spring break could be all that or nothing. at least a break is better than nothing whatsoever.

Kano - Hustler Official Video (check out all my songs)

2009-03-28T00:33:00.001-04:00

hardcore fresh shit man.

2009-03-21T00:20:00.004-04:00

Now that I got a new youtube account I can update this seeds madness with some ravenous clips man. This is a neat feature. Wicked vibes youtube. Blazing no doubt. Coders rule the world man. God is the greatest coder. He lends the open source binary for us to change our fate. Everything is code. Cloud, blood, sunlight even. Man can create worlds with code. Eventually he will but we won't be here. The man that we know now is about to step of the stage. The next level of evolution begins. The instructions are in our DNA. Coded eons ago to be called today. Dormant binary waiting for the trigger. A certain intelligence had to be attained before the upgrade function was initialized. The indigo level is ready. Exciting times huh. Sorrowful times if you are selfish. It's about us and yet it's not. At least not in the way we like to expect. It's about mankind. The persistence of man as a whole.