Sunday, May 25, 2008 by Billy
learning about life is mad consuming. It takes super human effort. It takes a lifetime even. Takes mad courage to keep optimistic. Takes a special kind of madness to remain sane in this Armageddon. Whatever will come will surely come. The hearts of men grow darker. It's how it is. Might as well disappear into what you do best. I continue to write as I explore this city. Found a basketball court across the way. Ran some laps on the court to pump my poet's blood. Blood rush for the rest of the day you feel me. The library was closed so we stayed in the sun. started another speculative piece of fiction while I joined stranded literati.
Labels: armageddon, library, literati, rush
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by Billy
should I call it year zero now that we've severed the limbs of les miserables? I will call it zero year counting to 2012 and beyond. Last time in union square it was buzzing with humans. Sun worshippers of nyc. I fitted in and stared out on the age. What we find here will be tagged for the futureheads. Semester is a wrap. I begin my quest to describe the ungrasping. Feed me words, feed me divine. I was extracted from time for this.
Labels: futureheads, nyc, union square park, worshippers
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Thursday, May 22, 2008 by Billy
what we have here is failure to be tolerant of the artist's mystique. so they keep raving and ranting about their things. perishable earth things even. we came here to open up the portals of our art. not to roll in the slime of the herd. the herd instinct kills man. makes you so bloody paranoid about appearance and what people think. and the lies are too much. but they are just feeding me fodder for the next round of my lyrics. brave new world man. gotta do what we gotta do.
first semester finished. got a 4.0 GPA. so that's cool. on vacation. the beast is loose.
Labels: beast, queensborough, semester
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008 by Billy
got accused of being a fiend once more. got accused by the automatons. got accused by calamity souls. did see that coming but damn that was too quick. freaks twist my words again. make me out to be the devil incarnate. at least if i possessed diabolic prowess i wouldn't have minded their insults. but you know how it is. the more things change the more they stay the same.
Labels: automatons, calamity, life, souls
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Monday, May 19, 2008 by Billy
on the last day of our English class the professor asked whether we knew what a blog was. I answered web diary but it's much more than that and even less too. I mean I have been blogging for about five years. It has become more than a place for me to share my daily travails. It's where I display my art and its independent appendages. My digital self thrives in my blogs. It misbehaves when am not around. It whines and threatens when I gotta refresh in the old country. The promise of web 3.0 suggests that my digital soul might one day piggyback to the old country. Scary isn't it? Go figure. The lust of tech and its consequences.
Labels: blog
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Friday, May 16, 2008 by Billy
semester almost ended. A turbulent beginning subsided into proverbial testing to gauge what we swallowed for the past months. I swallowed and vomited a lot. I won the freshman english essay literary narrative contest. Suppose to pick up a prize. We are honorees they said. The poet as thief of fire according to whitman. Could turn out to be a mystic summer in the city for me. Need the money. Need the art more. Need the freedom most. Union square park looks like the real deal. Tattoos and piercings sounds good. Modern primitive geek echo. The beat of my wayward wings.
Labels: literary, nyc, union square park
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